This is a notice to anyone who reads this blog. This is MY blog. This is not anyone else’s blog. This is MINE. Apperantly some people have over looked this important little fact recently, so I am reminding them and anyone who is confused.
I started this blog back in April because I was going through some problems, and I decided that it would be beneficial for ME to have an outlet for all my thoughts and emotions. I wanted a place to put everything down in words so that I could try and organize my thoughts and make sense of them. This is a place for me to vent, to get things off my chest, to confess, to explain, to work out, to elaborate, to clarify, to go over, to get over, etc. THAT is what my blog is, and I will be damned if I am going to censor MY OWN thoughts and feelings from myself. That defeats every reason that I created this page. It is ridiculous, and I feel sorry for those individuals who have to do that. I feel sorry for the people who have been pissed off by reading what I’m thinking and I feel sorry for the people who are pissed off by what I’m typing now. But I don’t care. This is MY page, and if they really don’t like it, they don’t have to read it. It’s as simple as that.
Now, I’m done venting. So, let’s analyze. I created a blog to put my thoughts and feelings down on. Blogs are public by their very nature. Therefore people are reading everything I put up here. So I shouldn’t post anything I don’t want other people to read. If I want to put down my thoughts, I should do it in a journal that other people can’t read. Right?
Well, I could do that, yes. I could keep a journal and that way no one would ever be angry about anything I have to say. Now, I for starters, I don’t put anything up here that I don’t want other people to know. I may put things up that I’m not crazy about other people knowing, but it’s nothing that I feel I have to hide from them. Second, I want people to read about what’s going on in my head. That’s another reason why I chose the blog. Then my friends who read it will know what I’m going through. If I’m having a suicidal relapse, they will know. If I’m being stupid they can tell me. If I have questions, they can answer them. Basically, I want other people to read this so they can help me sort out my feelings. Now how can they help me sort out my feelings if I have to sensor them?
Now, there are some things which I do sensor. I don’t post other people’s business. I don’t put other people’s thoughts and issues up here unless it specifically pertains to me. I try to value people’s privacy. This is my site, not theirs, and I have no right to post their personal lives on it. So, I don’t. At least I try not to. I don’t remember ever doing it in the past, and I consciously try not to do it. So, if I have, I’m sorry, it wasn’t intentional.
Now, regarding recent events, Steve IS pissing me off. I don’t hate Steve. I am just frustrated by the way he has been acting lately. I don’t like the way he’s been treating me, and I feel I have EVERY right to complain about my dissatisfaction about that in MY blog. I am not calling Steve names. I am not not getting into any type of argument with him. I am not telling everyone to hate him. I am not even saying he is a bad person. I am saying that I am not happy with the way he has been acting lately. I repeat: I am not happy with the way he has been ACTING. You see, there are two key words: “I” and “ACTING”. “I” refers to the fact that I am the one experiencing the emotion. No other people are mentioned. I am not saying that everyone is mad at Steve, I am saying that I am. And “ACTING” because I am upset with Steve’s actions. I am not saying he his a horrible person. I am saying his current actions have been considerably less than pleasant.
Now, if people said, “you should talk to Steve” or “maybe Steve is acting this way because . . .” or “Maybe you are over-reacting, because . . .” or anything like that, and I wouldn’t have a problem. That is why I post stuff on my blog in the first place; to get feedback. But all I got was that I was being childish by lashing out at Steve, and that I shouldn’t post things about him in a public blog because he can’t defend himself and it is an unfair, one-sided argument.
A) It’s venting. I was pissed at the time. People should realize that. If I was lashing out, I would’ve made a bunch of harsh coments about Steve’s character, or other things. I would hardly call what I did “lashing out”. I don’t know. Maybe I have a very different definition of Lashing out.
B) It’s my blog. I can post my opinions in my blog. That’s what everything is, an opinion or a thought.
C) Why should Steve have to defend himself from my opinion to other people?
D) It’s not an argument, it’s an opinion and a vent. I think I mentioned that before.
Let’s see, what else is there to address? Oh. Yes, I have made specific references to people in my blog, telling them certain things. I do realize people read it, and I wouldn’t address them specifically if I didn’t. That doesn’t change the fact that my blog is still a place for me to get things off my chest.
GAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!
Ok, I’m good now. I've vented and gotten things off my chest. If anyone has any comments or suggestions, please let me know. Just don’t degrade me for posting my thoughts and opinions. Thank you.
Eric 8/08/2003 03:28:00 AM
