Sooooo . . . I'm going to try something. I'm going solely on gut instinct and the support of Katrina and Steve. I'm going to really go after Nick. I'm going to show him how much I care about him, and how much I like him, and how much I want to be with him. I'm going to try all those hokey little romantic guestures, because, damnit, I want to. For the second time in my life, I like someone enough to do crazy, unneccesary shit for them. And for the first time, it's for someone who might appreciate it.
I'm going out tomorrow with Steve to go flower shopping. I'm going to pick out a bouquet for Nick. And I'm going to deliver it to his house along with a card with the lyrics to a Sarah McLachlan song in it. It's a beautiful song, and the lyrics reflect very well how I feel. This is the ending of the song:
Just let me try
And I will be good to you
Just let me try
And I will be there for you
I'll show you why
You're so much more than Good Enough
The title of the song is "Good Enough". It's not out and out a love song, but it shows how much I just want to support him and be there for him. I figured an out and out love song would be too forward and stalkerish. And besides, I'm not in love with him yet. I don't know him well enough. I just really, really like him.
But, yeah, so I'm going to do it tomorrow. I'm going to drop it off instead of giving it to him personally. I kind of want him to come home and find it without me there. I really, really, really hope I don't come off as a stalker. This is something I really want to do for him, and I guess if he doesn't like it, or thinks its dumb, then that says that he's not the kind of person I want to be with anyway. But I'm really not sure how he'll react. As I've said before, nothing with him is ever the way I anticipate it to be.
