Can't Think of a Title, So This Is Going To Have To Do
So . . . I found a story on IGN.com about certain theaters around the country playing the entire lord of the rings trilogy back to back. It's on December 16th, and they show the extended versions of the first two films before the first showings of The Return of the King. Granted, this is an 11 hour endeavor, but it sounds freaking sweet. A Lord of The Rings marathon in theaters! Heck yeah! Unfortunately, there is only one theater in Omaha that is taking part. Surprisingly, it isn't AMC, but Twin Creek cinemas in Bellevue. At least we have one. And that's the onle theater in a 4 hour radius. I soooooo want to go. If anyone else does, let me know so we can plan this.
Opening night was tonight. We kicked ass. The show is sooooo much better than I ever thought it would be. I mean, it's actually interesting and makes you think. It's much more complicated below the surface. It's also pretty racey compared to most theater I've done. Granted, I've done high school and conservative Dana college theater, but this is a nice change. It's bound to offend someone, and I like that. It challenges people to think. Yay for thinking. So everyone really should come see it. I'm really proud of this production. It's at 7:30 everynight Friday-Sunday, and its free, so you don't need money. It doesn't get any better than that.
I need money. Quite badly. I've got a little over $50 left out of the $117 I got this weekend. I've spent too much, really. It's not like I've meant to, I've just bought groceries and went out to eat a couple of times. Food is way to freaking expensive. I can't wait till my refund check comes in. I need it. I get paid on Monday, but I'll be real lucky if that paycheck is anywhere near $100. And I still have to order John Mayer tickets. By the way, I can't go to a concert by myself, so if there are any other John Mayer fans out there, let me know. Scott and Katrina are going, but they already have tickets, so I won't be able to sit with them. And, even though it is John Mayer, it will be considerably less enjoyable sitting by myself.
I also want to preorder Sarah's new album so I can listen to exclusive tracks. And I need to get the entire 1st and 2nd seasons of Farscape on DVD. But those may just have to wait until Christmas. So, yeah, money would be helpful.
My mood has been better, I suppose. I haven't been feeling good, but I haven't been feeling bad either. I'm just feeling . . . nothing, really. It's better than wanting to overdose, I suppose.
I'm not really mad at Steve anymore. I'm just . . . I don't know really. I'm not happy with him by any means, but I don't feel like shouting and beating him either. I guess I just don't really care about Steve right now. I really don't. I can't trust him anymore, so any sort of friendship will be difficult, if not impossible. Ehhhh, whatever he wants, I suppose.
But the whole situation really throws a lot of stuff into doubt. I mean, how many other of my friends are secretly pissed at me for being depressed? How many others feed me lines of bullshit to make me feel better? I don't need bull-shit. I need the truth. I need to know what I need to work on to be a better person. I need to know what really is good about me, not a bunch of lies. So, yeah, I'm really not sure where I stand with anyone now. Steve was a close friend, and I feel deeply betrayed. If Steve can do something like that, then anyone I know could do it too.
It's a good thing I'm feeling numb now, or I'd really be upset.
Eric 10/10/2003 02:04:00 AM
