I almost made it. I almost went to sleep at a reasonable time. I did go to sleep at a reasonable time. I was asleep by 9:00. The thing is, I didn't stay asleep. I woke up around 12:30. And I've been up ever since. I have no idea when I'll be tired enough to go back to sleep. Bah.
And to make matters worse, after I took that nap this morning after my previous blog, I slept through Physiology and almost slept through my appointment with Sharon. Good God. Evil god of naps, I smite thee!!!
So, yeah, I'm bored. The only person left to talk to online is Steve, and he's writing a paper. Posted on Gaia, did Utopia. Sooooo bored. Of course, there are hundreds of things I could, and probably should be doing, but I'm not b/c I'm a lazy s.o.b.
Talked to Tony for a little while. That was nice. Talked to Alex for a little while. That was nice too until I misiterpereted someting he said and it put me in a pissy mood that I was unable to get out of, so it probably pissed him off too. Grrrr . . . why can't I just go to sleep?
Only one class tomorrow and I'm done till monday. Can't wait. BLARGH!!!!! Yeah, I hve no idea where that came from, I just had the urge to yell, and since Joe's trying to sleep, I had to type it instead of actually yell it. Yeah, I'm in a really weird mood right now. It's not bad, it's just . . . restless. I want to get up and do something, but there's nothing to do and noone to do it with.
I downloaded Sarah's new video. It's pretty spiffy. The song is pretty cool too. I can't wait to hear what else is on the album. I proceeded to fight my boredom by downloading any unfamiliar song on Sarah's official site. There was a surprising amount. None were her songs, though. They were other songs from compilation albums she's been on. Interesting stuff.
Sooooo, yeah, I have a checklist. I need to mark down whenever I do stuff that takes care of, well, myself. I need to concentrate on the basic things like sleeping, eating, studying, etc. Because I'm not doing that. At all. And as such, I do not really have much of a life. So far, I sleep, I eat dinner, sometimes I go to a class in the afternoon. Then I get online to talk to a couple people, than sleep and teh cycle continues. How incredibly boring? I'm spending all my energy and thoughts on trying to control something I can't (having a relationship) instead of taking care of what I can control. It makes a lot of sense, It's just surprisingly harder than it sounds. I mean, it just doesn't seem as important as it really is, which is the problem, really.
ERIC, GO TO FUCKING BED!!!!!
Yes, sir. On my way, sir.
I have to be tough with myself or nothing will get done.
