You know, I'd LOVE to actually be able to blog about good news. It would be WONDERFUL. The thing is, something good has to ACTUALLY HAPPEN. And my life needs to quit giving me these shitty turns.
Apperantly, I'm just a big huge fucking burden on everyone. I was talking with Bobby tonight, and he was complaining that people were mad at him because he wasn't getting called to do stuff very often. Well, I told him it was no big deal because they just forget, and that I hadn't been called to do much this break either.
Apperantly in my case its different. Because I always need a ride, and someone has to go out of thier way to come get me.
I never dreamed that was actually the case.
So, apperantly, these people I've been hanging out with for the past two years and have been calling my friends have recently decided that I am not worth their time and energy to hang out with. Apperantly I'm not worth 10 minutes.
Now I'm a sorry I don't have a car. I never got one handed to me by my parents like they all did. Excuse me that my family isn't as well off. I can honestly say that if I had a ride, I would be more than glad to go out of my way to pick someone up. Hell, I've driven 48 HOURS out of my way this summer for the sake of a friend. And everytime I DO have acess to a vehicle, I always volunteer to drive.
I am grateful for being picked up. I try to contribute to rides when I possibly can.
It just infuriates me that it's not enough for these people. And it hurts. A lot.
Bethany says that if they were really my friends, it wouldn't matter.
I'm inclined to believe her.
So just who the hell are my friends now, anyway?
Hmmm . . . Bethany . . . and . . . well, I can't really say any others for sure, now can I?
Eric 1/25/2004 12:56:00 AM
