I just finished watching this movie in my Understanding Film class today, and I was reminded of how truly great a movie this is. For those of you uncultured to have heard of this movie, it is the story of 4 young boys who go on a journey to find the body of a boy that has gone missing from their town, and how their relationships evolve and change throughout this journey.
I haven't seen this movie in quite a few years, and I once again realized how much it affects me emotionally. It nearly moved me to tears, but not because it's particularly sad. The movie is very . . . nostalgic I guess. It makes you look back at your past and relive your life up until now. It talks about life, and how unpredictable it is; how you have to take the good with the bad; how everything changes at some point or another and you need to go on with your life.
I think it's the theme of change that affects me the most, I guess. All the people that have come and gone from my life up until this point and how they have affected me and made me the way I am. I miss those people. All of them, but there are too many to list right here. I'm sure I may run into them in the future, but our relationships will never be the same, nor will we have as large of an impact on eachother.
That's just the way life goes.
The cast list was posted Tuesday morning. To my great relief, I was cast as the Baker. However, as happy as I thought I would be at this, I was very much upset. You see, three of my best friends at Dana, Scott, Tabby, and Joe, were not cast at all. I honestly don't understand why. I can't fathom Brandond's reasoning in cutting them from the show. But everything has a reason, I suppose, and life goes on. It just won't be the same without them.
Tabby has two whole years ahead of her to do shows, and Scott's focus isn't in theater as it is. But then there's Joe.
I just don't know what to say to him. He's been trying to hide his dissappointment from me, I can tell. He doesn't want to ruin my happiness and says he's just glad that he didn't get the Baker so I wouldn't be mad at him. I think I can honestly say that if it had turned out that way, that I would not be mad at him, and I would not resent him in the slightest. In fact, I would be willing to give up my role for him if I could. He's just been having such a rough time at school lately and I have no idea how to help him or what to say at all. I feel so helpless. And I know he's been planning on transferring next year, and I think that this pretty much clinches it.
Which means that after this semester, Joe will be gone.
I'm sure we'll keep in touch, but once again, it won't be the same. He'll join the ranks of the many individuals that have come into my life, improved it, made me a better person, and then have moved on. I don't know if that's sad, or good, or what. But it leaves an unsettling in my stomach, and I don't know how to make it go away. I suppose only time can do that.
