Wow, what a busy weekend. And it's not even over yet. Friday was the Winterfest Dance, and I actually had a TON more fun than I thought I would. It's kinda like Dana's version of prom, except the guys don't have to rent tuxes. Very cool. And the DJ actually played more than just rap! Granted, it was probably beause Dana is so damn conservative in everything it does, that they had to get all the DJ's music approved beforehand . . . but if it makes the dance rap free, I'm all for it. But yeah, good times. They had a yummy dinner before the dance. And yummy is an understatement. I went back for 3 extra helpings. mmmmmm . . . fresh fruit . . . Unfortunately ever since then I've had the awkward sensation of being full, yet still being hungry. I don't get it. Hell, right now I feel stuffed, but I still want to eat. It's rather disconcerting, and I hope i goes away.
But yeah, I fully intend to bring a guy as my date to Winterfest next year, just so I can see the looks on Lisha's and Chris Jebsen's faces. Mwahaha. That, and going to a dance with another guy is the most fun thing ever. I mean, girls are fun to dance with and all, but it's hard to compare to someone you're actually attracted to.
Anyway, friday was a late night. Then I had to get up early for choir practice, which I WAS up in time for, but I was late b/c I had to wait for my dad to get up to give me a ride. NOT my fault.
Then I spent most of Saturday recuperating from Winterfest, so I napped a lot, then I went over to Jason's for Nerdcore fun.
Much to my surprise, Bobby was there.
It was . . . rather awkward at first. I had no idea how to act around him. I mean, do I treat him like shit like he's treated me? Do I continue to be nice? I didn't know, so I just kinda ignored him all night. Not rudely, just never . . . tried to talk to him or go out of my way to interact with him, I guess.
But over the course of the night, every little thing he said would just irk me. It was like fingernails on a chalkboard to hear the boy speak. And it's not as if he was saying anything offensive or dumb. I don't know why it was so irritating, but it was. I feel kind of bad saying that because normally it's a lot harder to get to me than that.
But you know what was the MOST irritating?
I was attracted to Bobby. Yes, attracted. First it was when he was wearing shorts and I noticed that he has some VERY yummy legs. Like, yummy as in Winterfest dinner yummy. Except I wouldn't eat them. And then when he was getting in the hot tub . . . he has a VERY yummy body too. I mean, I never expected him to have a six-pack and chest like that. Honestly, his face isn't the cutest . . . but DAMN, he has a very, very nice body. And it PISSES me off to be attracted to him like that. GRRRRRRR.
You know, it's probably just the fact that I can't have him that makes me want him at all. I have some irritating little complex like that; I am ridiculously attracted to people I can't have. So when I run across someone that I CAN have . . . I suddenly don't want them so much anymore. It's crappy really. I mean, how am I ever going to be happy with a shitty mindset like that. So, I just have to try and train myself to NOT be attracted to assholes like Bobby, and be more attracted to . . . people who actually are decent guys and show an interest in me. How? I don't know. I'll figure it out eventually, I'm sure.
But yeah, Kareoke Revolution and new DDR pads are definitely on my MUST BUY list. And now I get to get up tomorrow, go to practice all afternoon, then perform in an incredibly dull "Bach Festival" where the only 2 out of the 8 songs we sing are actually composed by bach . . . go figure. Then it's studying for Spanish, and that's my weekend. Thank GOD spring break is coming up. I need to get away and go have fun SO bad. And I'm really looking forward to getting to know Laura and Dan on this trip. Laura seems really cool, and Dan seems to be quite the character. And now that Dan's shaved his head, I no longer have to worry about being attracted to him. You know, on those few occasions when he DOESN'T have a ciggarette in his mouth. But yeah, good times are coming.
