-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.
See? I'm a good girlfriend . . . errr boyfriend . . . I swear. Bahhh. I think I have the capacity to be a wonderful significant lover, I just have to actually WANT to be. It's hard to explain. But, basically, if I'm really into someone, I'd be the greatest boyfriend ever. But if I'm not completely into them, then, well, I tend to be far from perfect. But I suppose that's the way it is with everyone, right? I dunno, I just have this need to make someone happy, I guess. And for some reason, it can't be just anyone. It has to be SOMEone. God, my psyche is sooooo convoluted.
So, yeah, my lit paper never got done. I started going through the few sources I actually had, and they were so boring they literally put me to sleep. So I slept till 9:30. I woke up and finished reading the sources only to find out that one of the 4 doesn't have anything at all to do with my topic, and the other three have VERY little to do with it. So, I need to find more sources, but by the time I realized that, the library was closed. So, I couldn't really do anything on it the rest of the night. Grrrrr, curse you sleep-dependence!!! It would be soooo much easier if I could just type my own ideas. I have no problem forming the ideas on my own. It's the quoting other people's ideas that I HATE and have always hated, and is why I dropped english classes at every chance. If it was up to me, I'd just type up my ideas, and find any little itty bitty statement in my "sources" that has any relevence to the thesis, and twist it so it makes sense. Like this: " 'The Marrow of Tradition was a good book,' thus if the book is good, then the ending MUST be satisfactory, for books with dissatisfying endings are not commonly acknowledged as 'good'." Sound good? I think so, but seeing as the paper will be one exact month late on Thursday, it better be PERFECT.
*sigh* I just need to sit down and type it. I'm sure the words will just flow once I start. It's just the starting that's the hard part.
I got my LARP essay back. I only got an 8 out 10 despite how well I thought I did. Apperantly my facilitator didn't appreciate my "life sucks" theme for all the books. He said it was flippant and detracted from the actual theme that I presented in the latter half of the paper. Well, I guess it was flippant, but I meant for it to be . . . satirical. You know, a wise crack. Apperantly he didn't think it was funny. Grrr . . . people need to have a sense of humor.
Eric 4/20/2004 04:28:00 PM
