I kid you not. I think that has been helping me get over my "lack of boy" syndrome as much as the anti-depressant application of the medicine. I simply am not as . . . turned on I guess. Well, I am, but I'm not . . . It's hard to describe. But anyway, the desire for sexual contact has gone down the toilet. Meh, whatever works . . .
I saw Spider-Man 2 last night, and I must say that it was MUCH better than I thought it would be. The first movie was good, but it wasn't my favorite by any means. I found it to be somewhat over-the-top and cheesy. The second movie couldn't be farther than that. Not only is it not as ridiculously cheesy, but the character development is phenomenal. Sure there's action galore, but there are also those little touching scenes that remind you that this superhero is a person just like anybody else, with faults and fears and insecurities. That scene with Hal Sparks in the elevator was hilarious! This was better than the first in every way imaginable. It even had Willam Dafoe in it, so Dan will be happy.
I haven't made any progress on my Summoner since my last post. Work has taken up a TON of time. But I plan on finishing the road to level 20 tonight actually, and I have the next two days off, so I"m sure I'll be able to get a good chunk of the avatars before I have to go back to work. And as of right now, Wentworth, I have jobs at 6, 9, 16, 17, 20, and 30. So, none at 14, but my Dark Knight would be more than happy to join at 17. And My Summoner at 20. A semi-perma party sounds like a great idea. It's help reduce all the downtime searching for a party.
I almost fell off my chair when I saw Jacob commented. I seriously thought I would never hear from him again. I haven't e-mailed him yet, though. I'm planning on it, I just don't know when. I find it kind of frustrating that he blocks me and hides for months on end whenever he gets the slightest hint of anger from me. But, if Jacob ever reads this, here's a note for the future: I don't hold grudges. At least against people. I find it extremely difficult to stay mad at anyone for long periods of time. Hell, I forgot why I was mad at you the day after I exploded. So, while you're certainly not on the top of my "most-loved people" list, you're certainly not at the bottom either.
Which brings me to another individual I've felt hostile towards: Bobby. I found out from Steve the other night about his father's physical abuse and his mother's verbal abuse whenever the subject of his sexuality comes up. It explains a lot of his trust issues, certainly. I still wish the kid wasn't so rude to me for his own suspicions, but I can't completely blame him for them. I just wish he can understand that some people legitimatly want to be friendly . . .
Oh, I have an ammendmant to my note to Jacob above: Knowing someone is mad at me, is usually the only thing that can sustain my animosity towards someone. Case in point: Alex's roommate John. Now, ever since I met John, the guy has unnerved me. I don't know why, but I've always felt extremely uncomfortable around him. As I may have said before, he has a very bitchy/sarcastic sense of humor in that he'll make rude/sarcastic comments about people or things as jokes. Well, I must be really bad at understanding his sarcasm, because it seems to me like he really means the things he says. But according to Alex, he is being sarcastic, sooooo . . . maybe that's what unnerves me about him. That and the fact that . . . well, he's just the most feminine guy I have ever seen. I mean, he's more feminine than most of the girls at Dana. Just looking at him makes my brain hurt. Once again, its not bad. It's just unnerving. Anyway, while I was never exactly comfortable around the guy, I never complained that whenever I wanted to spend time with Alex, more than half the time, that meant spending time with John. I just kind of took it in stride and tried to make the best of it. I thought I was getting to know John better, and finally understanding his sense of humor. So, one day while I was talking to Alex about John's new XY.com profile picture, I thought I would say a very John-style quip about John's picture. I said exactly this: "So THAT'S what he looks like with his shirt off. You know, it's not that bad until you see his face." Now, was it bitchy? Yes, but that's exactly the kind of thing John says about people/things all the time in jest. So, I would assume that Alex also would understand this, this the joke would be understood and laughter would be had by the both of us. Well, Alex understood, but John, who was reading over his shoulder was INCREDIBLY offended. I apologized, and Alex explained, but John to this day is still pissed at me. The relationship between Alex and I has fallen apart to almost nothing since. Coincidence? Not entirely, I don't think. Now that John has decided he does not like me, that made spending any time with Alex virtually impossible. Hell, even communicating with Alex lately has been more than difficult. It's unfortunate, really, that John can have this much of an impact of Alex's life. But, whatever, I guess. Anyway, I bring this up because yesterday, I walked by John in Oak View, and he pretended not to notice, and walked right on by. I mean, he HAD to have noticed. It was Steve and I and him in a rather empty corner of the mall. But no, apperantly he's still pissy, so he had to pretend to ignore me. So yeah, I'm still pissed at him because he's still pissed at me, and I don't think he has a reason to be. That's how that goes.
