Now, before I go into this post and start complaining about this whole week, I want Igotta, MysteryBob, and whoever else to understand that I am stuck! I don't know what to do, and that is the only reason I'm "whining" and "bitching". So before you get mad that I'm complaining again, at least tell me what I should do to fix whatever is going on.
Shit Pile #1
Wells Fargo has struck again. I got a hefty paycheck a week ago. So last friday I took Joe out to Pizza Hut and I got myself some groceries. The next day I got some spiffy coupon for lots of free pizzas at the Blair Godfathers. Well, Saturday I go to see Collateral with my brother. To my shock, my check card was declined when I tried to pay for my ticket. I get home and check my account online to discover that I had $200 removed from my account without my knowledge. Putting me in the hole, and then causing my groceries and Pizza hut to accumulate overdraft charges.
Naturally, I suspected my father, and was pissed. I find out the next day that $60 of it was what my dad took out for groceries, which I said he could do. I just didn't know that he had done it yet. But the other $137 was not his doing . . .
I go to the bank and ask them what this transfer is all about. They tell me that it was, in fact, my dad. So I was more pissed at him than ever.
The next day, I found out what happened. My dad was on the phone with Wells Fargo people trying to figure out what it was. What happened was this: My parents account was negative for too many days (a week or so) so Wells Fargo decided that it was going to take money from my account to bring theirs back up to 0. Not only did it NOT bring their account back up to 0, but they did not notify either me or my parents that they had done this. Thanks to this brilliant bit of business on their part, they were then able to charge me nearly $100 in overdraw fees for spending money I thought I had.
My mom was really upset. She was bawling about it when we found out. Wells Fargo is officially the most fucked up bank I know. As soon as we get them to give me my fucking money back, I'm switching banks. So is the rest of my family.
FUCK YOU, Wells Fargo.
Pile of Shit #2
Lo and behold, I'm not even good enough for the only other gay guy on campus. What a shocker. I should've known. I think deep down I did know, but I was so lonely I decided to try anyway.
After 3 weeks of everybody talking about this James kid, and 3 weeks of me mysteriously being the only one NOT to meet him, I decided that I would finally seek the kid out. So I went over to Ras to "hang out with Joy and Joe" and while there they would bring James by and we would meet.
Well, we met. He ended up being in Emelia's room across the hall. Joe introduced us. We said hi. Emelia invited me into her room. She, James, and Joy were all sitting on the bed, so there was no room. So I sat on the ground in front of them and proceeded to be ignored for the next half an hour.
They were sitting on the bed, looking thorugh emeilia's old yearbooks, looking for hot guys. Well, not only could I not see any of the yearbooks, but I also had no idea who they were talking about. So I sat there. I didn't know what to say, how to contribute to a conversation that I was obviously not invited into.
At one point some other guy came into the room and James and Joy left. Emelia talked to this Nick guy, and eventually James and Joy came back. At this point Emelia said she had to go run an errand, and we all had to leave. I figured since I was being ignored I might as well leave. Joy caught up to me and said, "I'm sorry. He's just such a diva."
That just confirmed for me that I was ignored for a reason. So, yeah, once again, rejected. Why? That's what I would like to fucking know! What is it about me that people don't like!? I mean, all anyone ever tells me is how great I am, and how cute I am, and how much they like me and like hanging out with me. So what about all that makes me unfit for a romantic relationship, huh!? What is it!? It's so fucking frustrating!
Everytime I fucking turn around, its rejection after rejection! Is this a sign, God? Am I supposed to be lonely and unhappy for the rest of my fucking pitiful existance? IS that it!? IF it is, I might as well fucking end it now and get it over with. I'm done dealing with this shit. With rejection. No one I know has been constantly rejected like this. No one.
I'm done. Fucking done. This pain isn't worth it. Not at all.
Eric 9/24/2004 01:43:00 AM
