I went to my voice lesson at 2:30 today. I was actually a few minutes early, and some lady was talking to palmer, so I waited outside. I know he saw me, though. So I paced and paced and paced. Finally, just sat down b/c I got sick of pacing. And that hot new Mike kid in chorale showed up, and waited outside palmer's office too. Its odd, but there's something . . . different about that boy. His eyes are so . . . engaging. Something about his gaze just fascinates me.
Ok, side tracking now, but I'll get back. But yeah, so I've noticed that he seems to go out of his way to not make eye contact with me. It's odd. I mean, its not rudeness, but . . . ok. So hard to explain. But I'll try. Like when waiting outside the office together, he didn't look over at me. Not once. I was keeping track out of the corner of my eye. He acted like I wasn't there. And he knew I was there. It was as if he was somehow uncomfortable around me or something. It might have had something to do with my "Sorry, I Don't Do Girls" shirt I was wearing today, but he's been like that since I first saw him. Its as though he doesn't know what to make of me. Like he either REALLY doesn't like me, or he does and he's not sure what to do about it. That's just the sense I get from the kid. But my senses are usually way off, so what do I know. I can dream, I guess.
ANYWAY, after what was probably 15 minutes, the lady left, and plamer came outside.
He told Mike that he could go in . . . So I was wondering just what the hell was going on. Dr. Palmer gets a drink while Mike goes in, and he says, with his back to me, "I missed you today".
I was still really confused. I had no idea what to say to that . . . Finally he turned around and told me that I wasn't at my lesson at 2:00 . . . I apologized and told him I thought I had signed up for 2:30(I could've SWORN I did!). And he replied by telling me that, no, it was at 2:00, and I should write it on myself so I didn't forget.
It was rather . . . patronizing . . . First of all, lessons are an hour long. I was still there for the 2nd half of the lesson, and he knew I was there, yet he continued to talk to that woman. Was I being punished or something? Second, misunderstanding the time is a perfectly common mistake. It's not like I just blew it off. I just had the time wrong. I wasn't trying to be rude. And third, telling me I was wrong, and suggesting I write the correct time on my body is just plain . . . rude. I"m not a 5 year old. I'm pretty sure I can remember the difference between 2:00 and 2:30. And telling someone to write info on themselves as a reminder is also very jeuvenille . . .
So I'm kinda thinking that Dr. Palmer was a dick to me today. He's never been a dick before. So why today? What did I do to offend him? To deserve him "punishing" me? I don't get it . . .
Anyway, Doc wants me to hold auditions for the one acts next friday, which is MUCH sooner than I was expecting. I'm excited though. It's something to take my mind off Seussical . . .
Which just really upset me tonight. My exceptionally unexceptional part just got to me tonight and made me really doubt myself and my future in performing. Kori basically told me that I can't be the lead all the time, and I should make the most of it. Well, easy for the lead of the show to say . . . But I kept things civil and reminded myself she was trying to be helpful. She didn't mean to upset me, so I thanked her for trying to help me feel better. I know that I don't particularly fit any roles in this musical. I understand that's probably why I'm not a lead, but it doesn't make it any more pleasant.
JP actually did make me feel better, though, not without a LOT of false starts. Finally he reminded me that b/c of the part I have, I'll be doing a LOT more dancing than I would otherwise. More dancing = more exercise. More exercise = less weight. Less weight = hot Eric! So, this part is serving to get me in shape. And once I'm in shape, I'll be better able to perform all sorts of roles, and look healthier and better, and be that much more prepared for my future acting career. It's my kick in the pants to get into shape. So that's how I'm going to look at it.
Doc better let me do Soap Opera though . . . I'll be damned if I'm not going to see the spotlight this semester. I need to keep my acting chops in shape too!
Oh, and Seussical . . . you know how I said I was beginning to like it? Well, that only applies to the first act. We did the second act tonight, and . . . well, its even more kindergarten-ish than I thought. The whole hunch section is irritating as hell. And the "we are here we are here" thing the whos do is almost as annoying as the constant seuss chanting. The music in the 2nd act is definitely not as good as the music in the 1st. Solla Sollew is pretty though. I give it that.
Still can't wait to be done with it, though . . . Katie put it best when she said "It's one of those shows that would be really fun to see, but not so much to do." That Katie. So full of wisdom!
I hung out with Scott today, for the first time in ages. We went to BK after practice. I wasn't hungry, but I went anyway. Then we went to No Frills and such. We caught up on eachother's summers and I learned all the drama he's been through. Reminded me he's not Mr. Macho Jock he feels he has to pretend to be. Oh, and DAMN he's fucking sexy when he doesn't shave his chest!!! *droooooooooooool* But don't worry, I'm not falling for him again. I'm just attracted to anything with a dick right now. You read my previous post. We talked about masterbation a lot too. And how much we shoot. Good times, good times.
But yeah, class in 7 hours. And REsident Evil comes out tomorrow!!! YEAH!!!!
