Yeah . . . I have a physiology test in . . . 10 hours. I should be studying for it. I NEED to be studying for it. I was going to study for it. But now I'm not . . . I'm blogging! Yeah, the original plan was to come back to school straight after work, study for a few hours, and then play some FFXI till 1 or so in the morning, and then go to bed.
Well, that's not how it turned out. Kelly had to do laundary, so I had to wait for 3 hours for him to do that before I could even leave the house. And because I got back so late, I had to wait around to gather up Tabby, Joe, and Christina so we could practice our quartet for choir tomorrow. It was neccesary, just time consuming. And then I get back to my room, and am distracted. By the internet. *sigh* Just talking to people, and looking things up, etc. And then Jason and I started talking about the new Vampire Campaign, and so then I was all up in that.
Actually, this new Vampire campaig is looking freaking sweet, and I'm all excited, so I'm going to talk about it becaues I feel like it! So yeah, we're basing characters off of our original selves, and playing as though we, ourselves, were embraced (turned into vampires) and suddenly thrust into this conflict. It'll be much more personal and dramatic b/c we don't have anyone dedicated to kicking ass. So everything will be interesting and challenging. And we're all going to be caitiff, so we get to choose any combination of diciplines (vampire powers) we choose. Well, the ones that fit me the best, actually look like they'll work together in a startlingly effective manner. Basically, I can use one power to inensify or dull anyone's emotions. Then, with another power, I can make people instinctively like me. So, potentially, I could either make it really easy to make people like me, or I could make people instinctively LOVE me. The two abilities kind of enhance eachother. Yay for Demention and Presence! I look forward to playing around with these in the game.
Moving right on, I have had this incredible urge to fuck someone over emotionally, who I'm rather pissed at right now. And what's scary is that I'm almost certain I could do it, too. No, I AM certain I could do it. And I'm certain it'd really fuck a few people over REALLY badly . . . which scares me that I want to do that sooooo badly. I've never actually wanted to hurt someone so bad. Do they deserve it? Maybe. I don't know. I don't think I'll actually do anything about this urge. I'm too . . . cautious to do anything. So unless something happens where events fall into place where I wouldn't have to do much to set it off, I don't think its going to happen.
It sure would be nice to be the one doing the emotionally-fucking-over as opposed to being the one emotionally-fucked-over . . .
Really nice . . .
Which makes me wonder . . . what if I was a bad person? How would it be to be able to punish every person who has every wronged me? How much damage could I cause? How many things could I ruin? What kind of power do I have?
What an incredibly creepy train of thought . . . I'm creeping myself out . . . but so intrigued at the same time . . .
