Not too much has happened so far. It's basically consisted of Burger King and FFIX. And BK is really, really getting old. I honestly don't know how I make it through everyday. I literally start talking to myself during my shift because I am so bored! Not that I'm not busy. I'm extremely busy. But its so repetitive and dull that I'm bored out of my mind when doing it. Am I going to make it through Christmas break with this job? I guess I have to. I don't even now where to begin looking for another job. One that will pay better, at least. And the thing is, I need the money horribly. I'm really freaking out about it. I got $171 on monday. How that's supposed to pay for a $230 car payment, a %50 credit card payment, $25 gas tank, $20 oil change and misc social expences, I have no idea. Shit, and tack on a $14 FFXI fee . . . damnit . . . I may just have to leave my car here at home because I can't afford the gas to drive it back to school, and I can't afford the oil change its a couple thousand miles overdue for. That and live in a hole for the next two weeks. Lord, if only I had been able to work during the musical! DAMN those saturday rehearsals! Damn the thousands of chorale performances! ARGH! The weekends are MY time to do MY things that I need to get done! So frustrating.
FFXI is definitely due for a burn out. Everytime the slightest thing happens to go wrong, things end up taking hours longer than I thought they would. Thus, I get pissed. Really pissed. Good god, just getting White Mage to level 10 tonight was about to make me smash the damn PS2. And the Linkshell (group of friends in the game) are getting increasingly sexual. Everyother thing they talk about is their significant others, and the great sex they have, or talk about having. Its driving me nuts! I come to FFXI to get AWAY from relationship frustrations! But no, I have my own inadequacies thrust in my face from a different angle, along with getting slaughtered by relentless goblins and tigers.
One bright note this break was going to see Alexander with Matt last night. Great movie. I can't think of a single thing about it that wasn't good. Just great. But the whole Alexander/Haephestion relationship thing got me love sick again . . .
Lord, its just that time of year, isn't it? Christmas time and everyone is spending time with their partners and crap, and it just makes me sick. Bahhhh, I"m such a scrooge.
I have to do those papers for World Civ and Modern Drama next week. Preferably the beginning of the week. I think I'll be starting my routine on Monday. Let's see if I've got it straight . . .
8-1: sleep/class/lunch (depending on the day)
1-2: check e-mail, message boards online, talk on IM
2-3: work out in the gym
3-4: show/relax
4-5: take a book for class, and read outside the choir room
5-6: Chorale (and I'll be on time b/c I'll be there an hour early)
6-7: dinner/relax
7-9: homework- anything- if no papers or anything to write, then read and study
9-12: FFXI or other videogame
12-1: IM/internet etc.
1: bedtime
So, I have set aside ample time for relaxation and screwing off, and also set aside blocks to work on my projects. Not to mention a much needed workout routine. and, of course, 7-9 hours of sleep a night, which ought to be enough. I just have to not take naps in the afternoon. Or if I do, it can take the place of one of the screw off slots. I should make a copy of that and make people hold me to it, I think . . . Yes, I'll do that. 3 weeks, and then winter break. Wow . . . and then I'll only have one semester left of college . . . scary . . .
Eric 11/27/2004 01:52:00 AM
