I finished running the BCNM marathon in FFXI that I had been planning and putting together for the past week. Only one of the 6 people who said they'd come actually showed up. No matter, my brother, Gheron (the one who showed up), and I ran some BCNMs. Ironically we trumped the battle that was supposed to be hard, but lost the ones that were supposed to be easy. It was really frustrating, and I feel bad for Gheron b/c he put a lot of effort into it, and I feel like I let him down. I think he understood though. So maybe we can try again next Friday.
After further reflecting on my post last night, I realized that it's ONLY gay guys that I have a problem socializing with. Girls literally flock to me. I hear all the time from girls how they had HUGE crushes on me before they knew I was gay. They tell me how hot I am, and how nice I am, and are always asking me why I don't have a bf. And straight guys seem to instinctively like me too. Even ones who are homophobic like me. Sure, as friends, but if even gay guys won't give me the time of day, then why would homophobic jocks? Its the oddest thing. Its like I'm popular with everyone EXCEPT gay guys. I don't know too many lesbians, but the ones I do know think I'm awesome too.
So guys, what the hell is your problem?
Matt's party tomorrow is going to be interesting. I strongly get the feeling that I'm going to be ignored. I mean, he has Andrew. Naturally, I'm bitter. So, my bitterness, combined with Matt's blind hormones = me sitting in the midst of a bunch of people I don't know and feeling uncomfortable. Thus I'm dragging Alex along with me, who is equally mystified by Matt's sudden extreme popularity in the gay community. So we can keep eachother company, and keep eachother sane. So I am looking forward to the evening once more.
Plus, we all know that a 21st b-day includes drinking.
