I just randomly watched that movie. It happened to be on TV, and I happened to not be doing anything else. So I happened to watch it. I've never actually seen the whole movie, just parts of it and the end.
Watching the whole thing this time, though, really made me notice stuff. Well, besides the fact that its really an amateur film and some of the acting/editing is horrendous, it does an amazing job of blending humor and philosophy. All the points about taking responsibility for yourself, and standing up to others, and basically all the trials Dante went through really hit home for me.
Good movie.
Regarding the whole Chris situation, yeah, I'm washing my hands of the situation. As far as I'm concerned, he's on strike 2, and I'm not going to chase after him to come back up to bat. I just really don't have time to deal with it. Just because he happened to be in Lincoln doesn't neccesarily mean he was with #2. But just the fact that #2 and #3 exist tell me that he's immature and not serious. Sure, I've liked more than one person at a time too, but I've never seriously liked more than one person at a time. I just don't see how its possible. If you're really interested in someone, seriously, you don't pussy foot around with other people. If you like more than one person, then odds are you aren't serious about either one. I don't have time to deal with something/someone who's not serious. Lindsay can tell him all about what he's throwing away. I'm not going to let this dren drag me down again.
After my last post, I went straight to bed. And the most amazing thing happened: I felt joy. I wasn't just happy, I was joyful. I was so full of positive emotion that I just felt amazing. Why did I feel so amazing? Well, it hit me that when I finally DO find someone; when I finally actually have a boyfriend, one who loves me, and whom I love in return, I will be so . . . happy! But not happy! More than happy. The joy I feel when that finally comes about will balance out all this depressive lonliness shit I've been going through for the past 21 years. But the other night I just knew that all I have to do is wait and be patient, and someday I'll have that joy as well.
Until then, I have friends to support me and two hands to deal with hormones.
Oh, and out of the blue, I decided to have WMP scan my computer for music files. I could have just added the ones from limewire and KaZaA manually, but for some reason I was feeling lazy and had WMP do it for me. Well, interestingly, it added all the sound files from Vampire The Masquerade: Bloodlines. And that game has some pretty kick ass music, and some really cool atmospheric songs, and now I have them on WMP and I can listen to them whenever I want. Hell, I even have the radio broadcasts (absolutely hilarious) and even all the dialogue from the game. Craziness. I'm sure I'm probably the last person to figure all this out, but it made me feel special at the time. In fact, that's what I'm listening to right now, The Hollywood Theme from the game.
So, yeah, Spring Break is winding down, and I still haven't looked at either of my scripts. I really should do that this weekend . . . hmmm . . . I guess we'll see what happens.
Eric 3/25/2005 01:43:00 AM
