So . . . yeah, I've missed a lot more school this week than I had planned on because of this whole hospital debacle. This is actually one of the few things that I haven't wanted to post on here because of the extreme personal nature of it. If anyone wants details, feel free to ask, but this is one time I'm not about to spell everything out on here. Just know that I've had a medical problem for 5 years now. It hasn't gone away, and just recently I worked up the nerve to actually get to a doctor for help. He gave me a perscription, and the problem actually got worse. So bad, in fact, that I went to the emergency room last Saturday because I was so scared. They sent me home and told me to make another doctor appointment. Well, I went in for testing with a specialist and had some minor surgury. When I finally came to, they told me they didn't find anything abnormal and that if the problem didn't go away, they'd give me a perscritption . . .
Because after 5 years, it's suddenly going to fix itself, and because the first perscription did sooooooo much good. Yeah, thanks doctors. Thanks a lot.
So, after 3 seperate doctors visists and loads of hospital bills later, I'm still at square one, with the same problem, and even more worried than I started out as.
Sharon tells me to just badger them with questions until I get some answers. After all, the squeaky wheel gets the grease. The thing is, I have SO MUCH to do these next couple weeks that I can't take the time out for another return trip to the doctor. And once I'm graduated, I'm no longer covered under insurance. Lovely, ehh?
God, I don't want to enter the real world. Not at all. I just want to stay in my nice, cozy little collegiate shell. Mmmmmm . . . it's nice here.
But yeah, I have an insane two weeks ahead of me, and then I'm done. I'm . . . done. That's it. No more Dana. No more college. Sure there's grad school in a year or so, but it won't be the same. It'll be more like training than school as I've known it for the past . . . shit, the past 19 years of my life. I remember how scared I was about high school graduation, and college graduation is SO MUCH BIGGER!
But I can't think about that. I need to focus on the present, otherwise I'm never going to get through this.
Ok, so, bio project is underway. It's going really well so far. And I got an extension on my presentation so I won't have to scramble to finish it next week. Thank god.
So, then there's my one-man show. I finally found time to work on it today. I worked on it for about 3 hours. I was by myself, so mainly all I got accomplished was going through and figuring out what props, costume pieces, and sound clips I'll need. Then, I went and just started going through it and memorizing. I got . . . well, I got through maybe 10 out of the 70 pages. And they're pretty darn well memorized. If only I had the kind of time to do that for the rest of the play. I'll do something similar on Sunday. Then Monday will be completely taken up by my bio project, and Tuesday, I'll start working with Tabby. She's my stage manager. So by then I can actually stage it and make some definite decisions about how I'm going to do things. Plus, with someone else there helping and commenting and keeping me on track, things ought to go much smoother.
I sent an e-mail to Doc about meeting with him to work on things for it, and to find out just what kind of budjet I have to work with. Matt (the Dana one) has told me on several occasions that he's more than willing to help me with my set. He's so awesome. If any of you saw Measure For Measure's set, you'd know how much work this guy put into it, and how amazing his work is. And even after all that, he's still really excited to help me with my show. Sara is also really excited to help. Again! I have all these great people who are so excited to help me and make my projects successful! I'm going to miss these guys so much! In a couple weeks, I may lose touch with them forever, and who knows if I'm going to find people this great out in the real world?
Oh, I'm sure I will, but it's that big unknown, ya know?
Anyway, and Lindsey talked to Dr. Bartels for me, and then I e-mailed Dr. Bartels, and she's REALLY excited to help me with the German and the accents and everything. Plus, she's even going to have all her German classes go see the show! How awesome is that! I already have a guaranteed audience! WOOT!
So yeah, things are looking good. Things are going to be hectic and busy, but they seem under control. I can do this. I have support, and I have talent, and I can do this. Yeah, no problem.
Whew! And now that this is all falling into place, maybe other things will too.
Eric 5/06/2005 11:55:00 PM
