I really need to stop being depressed and paranoid.
You know how you KNOW something isn't true, but you still have nagging little thoughts and voices in your head that say it IS true. Yet no matter how much you KNOW it isn't true, those little thoughts don't go away?
And you know you really ought to address those nagging little thoughts, but you're too scared to, because they might turn out to be true, even though you KNOW they won't, but the fear is still there.
Like I said, I need to stop being paranoid.
My previous entry was just a flood of those insecure little nagging thoughts that won't go away. It was in no way my trying to pin something on anyway or make any accusations.
At several points I considered deleting that post altogether b/c of the drama it could cause, but I'm deciding against it b/c A) like I just said, they're my own insecure thoughts and worries, and I acknowledge them as suck, and B) they need to be addressed and I'm too much of a wuss than to do it in any other way than by letting someone read them and react to them.
