Blogging = Emo That is the truest equation since E=MC^2. I swear.
At least I got to vent stuff out last time. Venting is good. And the thing you vented about never seems as big a deal afterwards either.
But, yeah, I"m blogging right now because I'm FUCKING BORED. OH my GOD, I'm fucking bored. I don't have rehearsal tonight, so I got on FFXI. It was the 2nd night in a row nobody wanted to do anything, so I sat around town to see if any random people were starting a quest or something.
No. No one.
So after a night and a half of pissing away my evening waiting on other people to do things, I said "Fuck it" and logged off.
Except now I"m still bored.
"But Eric, weren't you just saying how you had all those people to respond to? Why don't you do that?"
Well, you see, I'm soooooo bored that I'm resentful that I couldn't do what I originally wanted: FFXI. So, now that I'm resentful, nothing else seems fun to do and would just increase my annoyance right now.
What a shitty mood I'm in. Well, not that it's a bad mood like I'm MAD or something. It's just such a "blah, I'm fucking bored" mood.
And you know, I have all these topics I wanted to discuss in a blog, but now I'm so resentfully bored that I can't type them because it'd be like I'm trying to fill a void. The void of nothing to do. And to fill it would be to acknowledge it's there. And acknowledging the void is there would just piss me off.
So I blog.
And I blog.
And I blog.
And I don't really say anything of importance because I'm not really thinking anything of importance.
Because if I did, I'd just be pissed off that I don't have anything to do.
And we're back to where we started. Well, not STARTED, but back to some point in the middle of my ramblings. I think if I keep typing, we'll just get back to it again.
You know I've noticed that when I'm just spacing, I'm just thinking of the same stuff over and over and over
and over and over and over
and over and over again.
How crazy is that?
I'M FUCKIN' CRAAAAAAAZY.
And fuckin' bored too.
And if I go to bed, that only means that the next time I have a conscious thought, I'll be getting ready for work. Now work isn't BAD, but it's not something that I want to come ASAP either.
Besides, I'd probably just wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to fall back asleep.
I wouldn't have anything to do in the middle of the night either. Even less than now because if I get on my computer and type anything, I'll probably wake up Eric and he'll flip out on me, which scares the crap out of me, so I really don't want to do that.
I couldn't listen to music either. Same reason.
You know, I was going to post about music, but I'm too fuckin' bored to type anything of substance.
Because that would be like admitting that I have nothing better to do.
weeeeee, circles!
Ok, time to find something else to waste time till Eric gets home.
YAY for Alex! The only person who reads this anymore, despite Melanie's constant nagging for me to update!
