I'm at work right now. They're making more chemicals, but the one and only sample I have to run tests on doesn't come in for another hour and a half. I already cleaned the lab and dumped all the wastes, got all the instruments prepped and notebook filled out. So, there's nothing really to do until the sample comes in. And because it's a Saturday, I'm the only one here, so I don't have to be paranoid about not doing anything because there's no one here to notice that I'm idle due to finishing all the tasks there were to do.
Huzzah!
Did I even mention this job in my last blog? I might have b/c I had recently started at it. Lemme go back, just to make sure. Right now I'm working at Syngenta again. I worked here last winter/spring, but they slowed down and didn't need me anymore. Well, they called again this Feb., saying they needed me again. Since they're giving me twice as many hours a week as my part-time positions at the Red Cross and Xeroz combined, and giving me $3 an hour more, I relized that even if I only work at Syngenta for 3 months, I'd still make more money than if I worked at the Red Cross and Xerox for the rest of the summer.
Hmmm . . . something in me wants to double check those figures. Time to whip out the calculator!
Let's see: 16 hours a week at the Red Cross, 8.35 an hour= $133.60 10 hours a week at Xerox, $9.50 an hour = $95 Combined Total for one week = $225.60
40 hours a week at Syngenta, $11.50 an hour = $460
3 months at Syngenta = $5,520 3 months at ARC & X = $2,707.20
So, yeah, working 3 months at Syngenta would earn me as much money as if I stayed with ARC and Xerox until the end of August. Even if Syngenta lets me go after 3 months, that's still either a 3 month break with not job obligations, or it's 3 months to find another job and start earning money again. I'm thinking that out of necessity, it'll be the latter. But, anyway, I was told that there'd be another lab temp position opening up around June-ish that I could transfer to after Syngenta was done.
And, frankly, I'd rather just have a temp position for the summer because I've applied for a summer acting training session at the American Conservatory Theater. I missed the deadline for financial aid applications, so I can only afford the 2 week session (as opposed to the 8 week one), but the 8 week one would mean I couldn't be in Omaha for Eric's show, and that's not gonna happen.
So, yeah, I'm going to San Francisco for 2-3 weeks in August for, basically, acting camp. I'm really really REALLY looking forward to it. I want to make a sort of vacation out of it for Eric and I. He's never been out of the midwest, so I figured he and I could make a road-trip out there; that way he gets to drive through mountains, deserts, northern California, AND make it to the ocean. Once we get to SF, we can do the tourist thing for a few days, then he'll fly home for while I'm doing my acting camp thingy. At the end, he'll fly back out to SF, and we'll road-trip home again. I'm really excited for that too. We're saving up money, and since we both have decent jobs right now, there shouldn't be any problem. The only aspect I'm still wondering about is just where I'm going to be staying while I'm going to Acting Camp. ACT doesn't have dorms, but they said that there are "options" in the area. This was actually the biggest reason why I didn't apply last year- I didn't know if/how I'd be able to afford living there while doing the program. I guess we'll find out . . .
Anyway, as an added bonus, it looks like Bethany will be starting school in SF soon after my Acting Camp is done with. We're going to try and coordinate something so we can at least see each other before Eric and I head back to Omaha. Yay Bethany! It's been more than 2 years since I last saw her. TOO LONG!!!!
Other than that, the big plans of the summer are putting together Eric's play, Acrobat. After a huge pain-in-the-ass time of looking for a cast, it looks like we're all set. There's just a couple periferal characters that need to be cast. We've started rehearsals so far, but recently our venue backed out on us b/c of the content of the show. I actually would have been really surprised if they let us perform this play in, essentially, a family restaurant, but I just wish they had decided not to let us use the space, oh, about9 months ago when we were originally going to put up the show.
So right now the only real hurdle we have is looking for a place to perform the play. We're still doing rehearsals, but it's difficult for everyone, especially Eric, because without knowing where we're performing, we have no idea how we can stage the play. For the time being, we're just working on the acting aspects of it, and some very basic staging. All that needs to be done at some point, I just hope that Eric can find a venue in the next couple weeks or so, so we can keep progressing.
Well, I hope Eric or Melanie can find a venue, Melanie being the producer and all. It's been real hard on Eric, trying to get everything for the show organized and started all by himself these past few weeks, because Melanie's been busy doing Pygmalion.
Hmm . . . I just realized what I typed seems sort of bitter or resentful. Well, honestly, when Melanie announced she was doing Pygmalion, Eric and I were worried that it would affect her ability to help with Acrobat. And, well, it has. She had to drop out of one of the lead roles because she's taken too much time off work to do shows, and hasn't been able to help Eric with a lot of the technical stuff. I'm not mad at her. I just can't help but wonder if she knew how thin she was stretching herself when she agreed to do Pygmalion.
So, yeah, there's the whole "people-bailing-at-the-last-minute" thing going on again, except it isn't quite "last-minute". It's more . . . "early-minute". Meh, I don't know. I'm sure everything will work out. Even if we just have to perform it on a sidewalk downtown, we'll do it.
Anyway, the only thing I have left to say in the subject is: STAGE KISSING A GUY IS SO MUCH WEIRDER THAN STAGE KISSING A GIRL!!!! We haven't even DONE any of the kissing stuff so far, and I'm so paranoid and nervous and scared out of my fraking mind about it that I, honesetly, don't know HOW we're going to do it. I'm not refusing to do it. I'll do it. I just don't know HOW I'm going to do it.
But, yeah, so kissing a girl is no problem. Just lock lips and you're done. But with a guy, it's . . . I don't know, different! Totally different! I mean, last year, we had people back out of the show because they didn't want to kiss me. Sure, we have people now, but I can't help but wonder if they really don't want to either, and are just doing the show as a favor to Eric. And that's such a shitty thing to think, but I can't get it out of my head! Are they cringing at the thought of actually going through with the seduction scenes? Are they repulsed by me, but are too nice to say anything? Are they afraid that since I'm gay that I'll rape them or something? That I'll be too into it? WILL I be too into it? WILL I like it more than I should? I DON'T KNOW! And all those questions could have really unpleasant answers that I don't want to think about. And none of this would come up if I was kissing a girl. Well, I guess it could, but I really wouldn't care about any of the answers.
Wow, how hypocritical is that? Maybe Jeremy, Chip, and Demian just . . . don't care? In the same way that I just didn't really care when kissing girls? Not that I didn't care, but just had no reason to be paranoid. Maybe all those times the girls were paranoid about the same things?
Gaaah! So much confusion!!!! They're just kisses! They don't mean anything at all! I just have to make them look like they do . . .
Holy shit, they just brought in the samples an hour early. I need to stop thinking anyway. Yay for getting to leave an hour early!!!!
Eric 5/12/2007 01:16:00 PM
