Wow, Saturday was amazing. Totally amazing. The GSA event went great. I really learned a lot, and I have lots of things to share with everyone at the next meeting. And, actually, I'm glad that it was just the 4 of us going. It helped to be forced to meet new people. Good times were had by all, and we're all going to try and make this a bi-annual event. SOOOO EXCITED!!!!
And I actually got to see Allen for the first time in almost 2 years. It was . . . good. Very good. It brought back feelings that I forgot were there. I've blogged about this before, and I pretty much feel the same as I did the last time I talked about this. Allen just feels important to me. Being near him again, I just felt this huge void in myself.
A void that I wanted him to fill. I don't think it's love. I've been in love and its not that. I don't know what it is. Maybe a deep longing for friendship or something. Then again, maybe I'm feeling all of this for the simple reason that I can't have him. And once I get what I think that I want, the want will just evaporate. Errrr . . . my psyche is a pain in the ass.
But yeah, I definitely want to stay in touch with Allen. His beard doesn't look nearly as nasty as I imagined it would.
Moving on . . . the next time I figure I'll just stay up all night instead of going to bed and getting up early, someone slap me, please. I am sooooo exhuasted right now. I foolishly didn't go to bed after getting back from UNL, then went with chorale to Elk Horn Iowa where we sang at incredibly boring church services. Well, that's not entirely true. They were actually shorter and more to the point than anyother serives I've seen. I was just soooo exhuasted I wanted to get out of there as fast as possible. Plus, my stomach was apperantly not happy with me. I felt extremely nauseous the entire time. Heck, I only had 1 doughnut! ME!
When we got back to school, I collapsed on my bed and didn't wake up until play practice. So, I missed dinner. Joe is letting me have some popcorn, but the microwave went haywire and burned it. Good thing I like burnt popcorn.
But yeah, so that was the conclusion to my weekend. Not bad, if I do say so. Now, tomorrow, AMERICAN LIT PAPER!!!!!!!!! If anyone sees me online or not doing my paper, HIT ME!!!! I NEED TO DO THAT PAPER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks.
Oh, and on another note, who is "Mysterious Bob"? I've been wondering for around 6 months now . . . and their recent comment has me . . . questioning where they are coming from. I think knowing who it is might shed some light on just how I treat people like shit. Because I sure don't do it intentionally.
Eric 4/18/2004 11:11:00 PM
